A Letter of Gratitude to Fear

Dearest Fear,

I wanted to send you some gratitude (yep, gratitude) for so boldly reminding me that you cannot be ignored. You are one persistent pest that may not be present, but I can always feel you lingering. I have noticed you are really good at trolling my life and rearing your head right when I am on the brink of something new and exciting.

You are a total creeper. 

Now, this may sound like a passive aggressive letter, but I assure you, I am grateful.

I have felt your presence during many moments over the last few months. But you may have noticed that I did not acknowledge you. I did not invite you in, sit you down, hear you out and then let you have the floor. Instead, I nodded, smiled, and moved on. I know you’re there, but I do not have to engage.

You certainly cannot be ignored but let me be clear- I do not need you to lead the way. I won’t push you away or deny your existence. You know I have tried that tactic before and it failed miserably.

I won’t push you away or deny your existence. You know I have tried that tactic before and it failed miserably.

I see you and your game but be advised, that old story and those old tricks won’t work on me anymore. You may have some new ideas up your sleeve, but I got some moves of my own.

My gratitude comes from a place deep within me. A place where my practice of self-awareness, self-growth, and self-love is cultivated.

I don’t need to squash you, I just need to move beyond you. I thank you for being present.

I thank you for being present because, without you, I would not have reawakened to my personal power and to my innate, authentic self. This power that fuels me to rise up. This power that guides me to be acutely in tune to when you are close. This power that ignites that fire within me to choose love rather than you. For without you faithful fear, I would not have reconnected with my SOUL.

My truth is stronger than any gimmick or cheap trick you have.   I have too much strength, too many daydreams and way to much self-respect to allow you to call the shots.  It has taken me a long time to come to this realization that, although I won’t let you control my life, I will allow you to stick around. Why?

Because without you, I wouldn’t know what I am capable of.  

So thank you, fear. Thank you for being you. I get that you are what you are and that you have a role to play. Thank you for the reminders. But please understand–my gratitude is not an acceptance letter for you to be in my circle. It is not a welcoming invitation for you to offer advice and opinions. Because I will drown you out with all of the love I have to muster.

I am ready and there is nothing you can throw at me to stop me from serving this world with my SOUL.

Yours in Love,
Katie